Ranting. Hahah! We're not gonna stop ranting, aren't we? I mean, aren't I?

Who am I kidding! National Day! Oh hooray! O.o! That sounds so... half-hearted but that's what it is! X.X! Good gracious, amusing! So, I watched a good 1/3 of the parade. The first was all about Sang Nila Utama and how he found Singapore. Or Temasek, as it was called back then, me thinks. O.o! After that, the contingents marched in. I've always loved that! :D! Fascinating things! Love how they march! So smart! And handsome! Drools! Harharr! The president will then talk to the main contingent! Gotta love that, hoho! XD!

They're so smart and well-formed. :)! But after that, it was prayers for me and so, the TV was off. Call me bored but I swear I saw a heart shape when the Marines were trying to catch "villains" during their emergency-national-day-drill. Hahaha! XD! Irony of it! Singapore Flyer, Merlion, Esplanade and Marina Barrage were full of peoples, or so the news say.

Texted him. Says he all right. That's all I heard.

Texting Rafiq right now. No doubt it's been fun today, I suppose. So, he treated the gang to sundaes? Haha! Nice of him, today. O.o! Well, like I haven't been treated by humans before. -.-! Besides, I doubt if anyone wants to treat ME in particular. Look at the bright side. Don't treat the plague. Kill the germs in order to get rid of the plague. Sanctify everything! Sanitize all shit. Get rid. Polish! They're cool that way. No doubt I have every rights to be erased from the face of the Earth. Call me a loser already because heck, right now, all I can think of is to hide my tail between my legs and just run and hide somewhere. Under a blanket isn't gonna do much. I need to move away, from troubles, from everyone, from everything.

I didn't claim to be strong. But I didn't deny that I'm weak either. Save your ego and save my pride. Let's play strangers because that's all I can afford now. To see you everyday, it just kinda remind me that people like you step all over me too easily. Treat, be nice and dump. That's what I am. Once broken, considered sold. Feh! I'm not easy. Yes, I'm not. People don't buy me. They just throw me into the bin. Conclusion? Susu should just die and yes.

I'm bragging my purpose. Making it bigger than it was meant to. If you and I were meant to be strangers, then perhaps I should let the hands of Fate play it that way. I'm tired of just trying to fix myself up. It's better that I'm left broken than to use my fragile hands to fix the broken me. I don't need your hands. I don't need you. Most of all, I don't need love. I realise now, and as Richie would have said it, one-sided love ain't gonna get me anywhere. I should slap myself awake now. No more dreams. It's nightmares from now on. Or worse.

Reality.