Well, to start off, I didn't exactly have a great day. Sinus comes and pay me a visit. I doubt he'll go away in a short notice but anyway.

Into the matters of today, yesterday and tomorrow.

School: Hey, all school assignments are done. Today is my last day of class before a one-week break and heading into doomsday. Yes, exams. 3DGA and SNVI. I don't ever recall what I've learnt but eh, I think I shall live, somehow. For some reason. I'm just a homo when it comes to surviving but I survived in the end. You don't recall that I actually stayed up awake till 3am, watching dramas just before my 'O' Level English examinations. My mum was mad. She scoffed at me, because it was a big day and I had to reach school by 7.30. That leaves me exactly 3.5hours to sleep. I had sinus throughout my overall 'O' Level. I'm just a superman when it comes to flu. Or sinus, really. Whichever works better...

Work: Has been demanding, tiring, boring. A regular customer, since day 1 that shop opened, I assumed, till now, has been feasting at our workplace. Yet, so many surprises is in store. She came shouting at the counter. My god, I just came back from the bank, just depositing money. Heathens. I placed faith in everyone to do their best until... the manager from Jurong Point's outlet dropped by. Ah Yong. He came to buy crunchy shrimp, Grilled Salmon and Grilled Seafood Feast. Straightaway, I prepared the food for them. I don't trust anyone else. Not to say I don't have faith in teamwork but this is Ah Yong we're talking about, so I have this habit of being independent and not trusting others to do the best. It's because of the regular customer screaming, thus I decided to snap off at the others, to do better. I don't want this incident to repeat again. Already my shop has been treading on a thin line. I don't want anymore problems. We have enough as it is already. Reputation's in the boiling water. But ok, stuff it.

Friends: I don't know if I should update anything on this. Perhaps not. But I still miss Betty, Jennifer and Gio. :)!

Now, on to the more complicated affairs...

One whole night, full of texts. Discovering each other little secrets. I want to understand you. A lot. I don't know if it is due to my liking for you, or just because. I wish it was just due to my liking. If it's just because, I've felt like I'm walking on fire already. I don't think I like him anymore. It's definitely more than like. I cannot say I love him, right? That's just not right. Maybe it's friendship that grows deeper. Maybe not. But whatever.

I hardly hear you text or speak like that. It sounded like you're really alone in your own world. You love spending time on your own, don't you? You have secrets surrounding you. You're full of them. One by one, I'm gonna uncover them. You're not alone. No one is. I like it when you open up. It seems more you. But it is also you to be full of secrets, mysterious. Why am I harping on this matter again... Doesn't matter now, I guess. It's up to people as to whether they want to see my rants. I'm really in deep waters now, aren't I? Like I said before, I'm going deeper and deeper into the caverns. Am I hopelessly lost, hanging on to a dying torch? Infinite maze, with a thousand and one possible en route out. But no, which path do I choose? I don't see any source of light in my cavern. I can't keep my eyes anywhere. That's what I'm feeling right now. So lost.

You're funny, you know? You treat me to food, if there's no one around. Cheap bastard. Casually asking me if I want anything. God, I'm so god-darned embarrassed. Every little thing we share. Silly jokes. Fights. Talks. People wonder if there's anything between us. In fact, it's only me having a thing for you. What can I say? I'm hopeless. I don't think you can see me more than a sister. I'm so silly. You hang around me like it's the better option than others. X.x! Oh how I harp onto these matters. I don't care about anything. I care only about the best from me to the shop and I care about the little moments I have with you. People never get enough of calling us couple. Tom & Jerry. Laki Bini. Lao Gong Lao Po. It's so silly and hilarious. We're just manager and staff! Nothing more. :)!

Still, despite all that, you didn't deny me, scoff at me or ignore me. I'm so thankful. I'm lucky, aren't I? I love it more that if we fight seriously and not talk to each other, we find ourselves gazing at each other. Full of apology. You scolded me, reprimand me. Just like how I do to you. Mad at each other. I'm mad about you. Haha!

But still... I'm pretty sure 99% you don't like me. It's that 1% that keeps me holding on...