something... simple
Monday, December 29, 2008/ 12/29/2008 11:13:00 pm
"if a girl and a guy can remain friends after a break up, it's either because they're still in love or they never were."
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The greatest irony of love:
Loving the right person at the wrong time,
Having the wrong person when the time is right,
And finding out you love someone right after
That person walks out of your life.
And sometimes, you think you're already over a person,
Until you see them smile at you again,
You'll suddenly realize that you're really not.
For some, they think that letting go is one way
Of expressing how much you love the person,
By sacrificing your happiness for theirs,
Without realizing that the other person's
Doing the same thing for them.
Most relationships tend to fail
Not because of the absence of love;
Love is always present,
It's just that one is being loved too much
And the other was being loved too little.
We always fall in love with the person we think we love,
Only to discover that what we loved about them fades.
Bad experiences are always remembered,
But it's the wonderful memories that are captured
To remind us that there are brighter days ahead
And that happiness exists.
You need to learn to let go when you're hurting too much,
Realize that sometimes love just isn't enough
And accept the fact that things aren't always gonna be the same.
There is someone out there who will love you more.
It's all the thought you put into your decisions
That impairs your judgement
When your heart already knows what you need to do.
Listen to your heart. Even though it's on the left side, it's always right.
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sleepy
sooo sleepy as of late. i wonder why. just weird.
sometimes, alex and i are on the verge of breaking up. but we always patch back. so, as usual, the post before this doesn't count. let's see how far this relationship goes, aye? ok, so other than that, nothing much.
work: has been extremely GREAT! :D it's fun just joking around. i feel that my outlet is fun-loving. hahahaha! yes! it's all due to me and abang! MAN! i feel good!
school: HOLIDAYS! next week it restarts, UGH!
other than that, everyday's been the same. here and there. just been flyffing more. thanks to cw-ing. xD!
oh! i wonder what's up with cici. i worry for her, much.
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as promised...
Wednesday, December 24, 2008/ 12/24/2008 11:39:00 pm
you'll be free at 0000 hours on 25th December 2008. 2 days before 3 pathetic months of waiting around. i'm good to move on. you go to where
YOU belong. i go to where
I belong.
claise, by that time, i swear it. enough is enough. i'm turning cold hearted again. yay me. it's time to get it over with.
i swear it upon my own name
2359 is the last i'll speak of your name
2359 59 secs, my last breath that carries your name
0000 is when it officially ends.
when i really give up on you.
when you're really free.
really?
wasn't that your own heart's request?
i don't have to hear your lips.
your heart and eyes says it all.
you and me
are just not meant to be
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ratings: retarded
Friday, December 19, 2008/ 12/19/2008 08:00:00 pm
retarded indeed, Claise.
i had stupid customers today.
who doesn't know how to bloody open their mouth and just TALK.
only thing they know is just to fucking whine.
totally retarded customers.
gotta hate them.
GAH!
other customers don't have the problem sharing food. you peoples?!
can't even share? omfg. gay.
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ihatehim
Monday, December 15, 2008/ 12/15/2008 11:35:00 pm
i hate him.
Who Claisavard?
My dad. Yes.
MY DAD!
GAH!
What's wrong with fetching a friend back?! OMFG! What is wrong with your retarded mentality?! Go have a thorough check-up, will you?! Your policies are, not only outdated, they're also plain bullshit. OMG! Learn your place, can you? This is no longer the 1950s. Then again, probably you will never learn. If you learn, the sun will rise from the west. I fucking swear it.
You had to babble about online relationship. GREAT! FUN! WHO THE FUCK MEETS A GUY ACROSS THE GLOBE?! Plain bullshit, that's what.
What about religion shit? Picking a friend from airport gains me nothing. But fetching people who came back from pilgrimage gains me points. SO?! I ASK YOU! SO?!?!!?! I feel like picking my friend, it's my problem lha. You preach about such nonsense for what? Crazed.
And no friends. When you in deep shit, it's not your friends who help. But your parents. Uhhh? So? We have friends so that they can LISTEN TO US. They can't help, yes. But they can at least listen. Give us advice. BUT NO! FRIENDS BAD, PARENTS GOOD. MY FOOT!!!!
Studies. What the hell. Yes. The most outrageous topic to even come into this crazy abuse. Just keep studying. So your future will be good. No relationships for you? HELLO! LIFE NEEDS A BALANCE! You need friends and studies and someone to be around. I will end up liking someone one day. What the hell is with the -no relationship- policy?! Crazed. If I like someone, you torture me also no point. You make me more bold. You can't make me forget the person in one split second. You can't just make me stop liking him. Best of all, you're just hurting two people in the process. Gotta respect that. Retarded.
I hate him, period.
One more time Claise.
I
WILL call the cops.
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deluded
Saturday, December 13, 2008/ 12/13/2008 01:03:00 am
i'm totally deluded.
by me. by him.
by us.
deluded into thinking that we can last until forever ends.
deluded into thinking that... perhaps... we can defy fate and fight everyone.
deluded into thinking that there is even the tiniest chance that we can be together.
stop.
all illusions have to come to an end.
i have to wake up.
the music is now distorted by simple thoughts. destroys the calm it's to bring. no more listening. no more enjoyment. bliss banned from thoughts. banished. outcasted by skin colors.
why?
ultimately, we'll both feel the pain.
ultimately, we know we'll go our separate ways.
ultimately, i and you will be bound to get hurt.
in the end, no more us.
why can't we end it all?
are we just desperate? to be together?
i can't let go. can't you let me go instead?
will you? you won't. why?
because simply, you can't let go either.
...
facades to hide our true feelings
we face everyday like it's nothing
yet our hearts torn by one very fact
we'll split one day
masks to hide ours eyes
to hide each other from feeling pain we suffer
ultimately, things come to an end
and so, we die and here we go again
i need you
so do you
why are we afraid to face the future?
lets decide now
to fight
or
to give in
i wish to fight.
question is, what is your choice?
Labels: here i go again babbling about me and him and if there is an us or not...
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reflection
Thursday, December 11, 2008/ 12/11/2008 11:43:00 pm
in my reflections, i can only see how much i miss you.
can only see my tears pouring for you.
can only hear my heart crying for mercy.
can only see more confusion about you.
why do you haunt me so?
only in my eyes.
all the more i want to hear your heartbeat in rhythm with mine, wishing that it will stay in beat forever. the music of the heart. it's rhythm so unique, you'd want to hear no other after listening to it once. it takes ages to find one you truly love. i hope to find this the most beautiful piece ever heard.
in every heartbeat,
it's an aria.
the aria meant for only one pair of ears.
the aria sings of the ears' owner.
hoping to catch their hearts.
hoping to hear their melody.
melodies of the heart.
in every aria,
it's a secret
to the heart
to the unknown
to him and her.
Labels: alex iMissyou
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labels
Tuesday, December 09, 2008/ 12/09/2008 11:45:00 pm
Sigh. No matter where you go, you'll always get labelled by someone, something. Cici's back in Indonesia. Oh well. Life's pretty much the lame ol' shiznizzless and my arms are getting numb. HaHA! @_@! Major laugh laugh. Illusion is pretty much dead again since I'm not around. Autumn too. Summer aswell. Venus too. Cici also. Pretty much the major noisemakers are gone. Sad. But oh well. I'm giving DA a big miss aswell. Pay day's tomorrow. Let's see Susu's budget this month.
50 bucks to mai aunt. - her request.
40 bucks for jeans.
50 for ezlink.
What else...
Basic girl stuffs, I'm thinking 50.
Sigh. You realise that is like 200 gone?? Half of mai pay gone due to these crazy needs. Why would I need jeans? Embarrassing fact is... My jeans are TORN! You don't expect me to wear it. :(! It's been 2-3 years or so. The same ol' jeans, all right.
That's not all.
21 for that present I want.
Maybe.. I'm not sure... 20 for a mini scarf with A inscribed? I've no idea. 10 bucks for movies. Oh bug.
Make that 250 gone. Oh well. Jia you! @_@! I need Gpots. Sigh! WHY ALL COMING DOWN TO HAUNT ME? GAH! @_@! Susu, shoot yourself now! @_@! Sigh?!
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hiya
Friday, December 05, 2008/ 12/05/2008 05:16:00 pm
Oooh! Sigh! Haha! Me and Alex talked our hearts out. I was the emo-kidd again! Suspectible, ain't it? Haha! XD! Anyhow... EXAMS ARE OVER! YAY! T_T! LOL! Lame ass. xD! Nyway... Just so you know Claise, I'M BORED! ROFL!
Claise: You dumb retard! YOU THINK I DON'T KNOW YOU?!
Susu: ZOMG IT SPEAKS!
Claise: SHUT UP!
Susu: It scolds! O_O!
Claise: Kidd, hey, PEACE OUT MAN! I need a break from peoples like you!
Susu: Oh buggah! :(!
Hahaha! I'm getting that polar bear for him. Mhahahaha! MERRY XMAS TO HIM! Happy HARI RAYA HAJI TO MEH! :D! Hope the peoples in Makkah are in good condition! OH OH! Hopefully their pilgrimage are accepted! You go peoples! :D!
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