funny...
Thursday, October 30, 2008/ 10/30/2008 07:21:00 pm
Today was just plain funny. Come in shop at 10+ and my heart started thumping. Because he's there. XD! Stupid heart. Stop thumping so loudly! Mah gawd! How embarrassing. Hahaha! We kept having eye contact and kept grinning like.. I don't know... People madly in love!! LOL! Ok, so we did laugh here and there. :X! Abang told us off. Wahahaha! XD! Yessir! We're that mad today. ROFL! Played around, yes. Shared food and drink. Hahaha! I uhh... shall not speak about something super embarrassing here. HAHAHAHAHA! XD!
All menus touched EXCEPT FOR DAMN IT! STUPID SHRIMP FRIES! ARGH! Had Classic orders today. I was like *coughs* Fishmeal *coughs* 2 set right? Ok. *goes to Alex* 2 set classic! ^^ *hears Alex scold "PCB!"* Hahahaha! So many grills! YES! THERE WAS A NEW ORDER OF GRILL PRAWN! AMAZING O_O!
Last part... I heard the guys casual talk in the kitchen... About sleeping with their girls. LOL! Alex go say "Won't sleep with any girls. I will only sleep with Suhailah." WTH! LOL! He was grinning, so proud of his... uhh... declaration.. ._.! I was down there going all XD!!! Hahaha secret smiles yes. Poke here and there. Both of us are uhhh... itchy handed! Mopiko doesn't work. :(! Sadly. XD@! Hahaha! Yes, he mess my hair OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN GODDAMMIT! Gosh! My hair! Abused by my hubby T_T! Die already amazingly! O_O! ROFL! Anyhow... Freezing like shiz... And I'm FECKING SICK GODDAMMIT! ~_~!! FLU! ARGH!!!
Laters Claise!
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sigh~!
Monday, October 27, 2008/ 10/27/2008 11:43:00 am
Sigh~! Yesterday was just one bloody damn disastrous day. T_T! My life was like a drama.
Alex went with Munawar because he was trying to find his now-currently-missing earpiece. I didn't really had it registered in my mind. All I know was that I was a little upset. Ok, more than a little. I was bracing myself. Until at the bus stop. Not the same bus stop. God! It's a drama here. I waited there for him because he said he rushed to find me. BUT! The last bus came. When I board the bus, it's like a drama. I didn't see him but he saw me. It was like...
*waits till last bus* *boards the bus* *he came running but he saw me up the bus* *can't do much* *both cried*
That's the story. I swear I didn't see him. I guess. Too late somehow. That was sorta the last chance to go back together? Some drama, huh, Claisavard? Sigh~
Life's such a
bitch.
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freezing
Friday, October 24, 2008/ 10/24/2008 09:26:00 pm
FREEZING! In TWO WAYS!
Temperature.
Lack of love.
I need loves. :(! Only one person can give me that! Nyahahaha!
Oh well. Bored. Still in class. Yada-yada. @_@! OHOHOH! Assignment 2 is due soon and I haven't done shit. GOSH! T_T! Kick me outta this module already! Too right! :(! MA-AN! :(! Oh wells. I miss my friends already! MARINA! GO OUT WITH ME SOON! I ARE DESPERATE FOR FRIEND'S LOVE! :D!
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smitten with him
Monday, October 20, 2008/ 10/20/2008 11:26:00 pm
I'm SO smitten with him. My heartthrob. :)! Us for the win! ^^!
Hahaha! I can't believe he told off everyone today
NOT to ask me about my background or anything that can upset me today. WHOAH! O_O! Speechless to the core, I'm honestly astounded! X(! Omigosh! Thank you sayang~!
Hahaha, other than that.. OH YES!
I'm screwed tomorrow! Project not done! YES! That is why! Why?! OMG! NO SCRIPT HOW TO DO STORYBOARDING?!?!?!?! ALAMAK! @_@! AIYOO! OH WELL! GONNA STAY UP TO DO THIS SCRIPT THING! I mean storyboarding! Chat with him all night! Ok NIGHT!
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twisted feelings
Friday, October 17, 2008/ 10/17/2008 07:42:00 pm
SO super angry today. And pissed. Don't ask why. I
REALLY DO NOT KNOW! OMFG! Profanities coming out of my mouth. Who am I bullshitting? ARGH! This is such a major... I don't know! All pent up anger just decides to come and bully me today! ARGH!
I was feeling all pissed and GREAT. Someone had to top it off.
I felt like going... alll...
"Oh GREAT SIR! Fine job overall for today. You've really completed my day, you fkn old fart. You know somedays when you're cranky and you can't help it but have the needs to just shoot profanities or just be bitchy? This is one of my days. Fecking deal with it. If you can predict when I'm gonna have my bad day in the future, then go on predict and don't put me on work on that day. Oh YAY! Any more fine tips? I don't do vulgarities to my customers. It's just to myself or to colleagues, but even so, it's hardly. It's just more to myself. Are you so fecking afraid of a twisted crazy worker?! The thing is, profanities are part and parcel of life. Deal with it or GTFO of life."
I am THAT PISSED. ROYALLY PISSED. GAWD! Everyone, steer clear of Susu. She's a fucking murdering whore tonight. GAH!
PLEASE PLEASE! With a cheery on top. Don't go around fucking pouring fuel to the fire. It's bad enough we have fire. We don't need to burn the whole situation up. That's epic moron. Only Fag people do that. Are you classifying yourself as one? GOSH! Epik phucking phail. I know you're boss but don't go airing that bossy attitude around. It's sickening, period! I know. It's work. I shouldn't be doing profanities. BUT WHAT THE HECK?! I'm a victim of today's royally-pissed mood. I can't help it if there'ss vulgarities today. Yes, service line. Blahblah. But you too! Everyone has their bad days. No one is perfect so bug it. If you feel like that too sometimes, then don't fault others. We are different. We're not the same. Not alike. We have different level of control, temper and whatever! Don't start comparing because the problem is... WE'LL HATE IT! PERIOD! GOD! I'm getting angry again. Maybe I should just piss off and fuck off.
Have a great fucking time.
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rescued
Thursday, October 16, 2008/ 10/16/2008 08:44:00 pm
it was almost gone. well. almost.
last minute rescue!
to what? to my relationship. apparently we need problems to boost our bond. :)!
ljs today was disastrous. :(! abang called me down. i went to jurong point ljs. damn. the manager is scary shit. @_@! haha. well. never mind. back to lessons. i'll update more/edit laters!
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Andai kata...
Tuesday, October 14, 2008/ 10/14/2008 11:13:00 pm
Cinta.
I found a certain article to the related word up there. It's pretty sad yet full of truth. Ok I cried. Happy?
I'm being... honest with myself. I love him. But I don't want to be blinded for him. God, please help me.
I'm helplessly addicted to him. I just hope that him and I, can be together on one path. With His help, why not? But I figure, it'll all come crushing down. But I always hope...
Kita hanya mampu merancang dan memikir. Dia yang menentukan segala-galanya.
Andai kata kita berpisah, jangan kita bersedih karena apabila satu pintu kebahagiaan ditutup, satu lagi yang dibuka. Andai kata cinta kita tulus, mudah-mudahan kita ada jodoh. Andai kata tiada kata lagi yang mampu disebutkan, doakanlah sentiasa.
I'll make you happy but if you're happier with someone else, I'll let you go because your happiness, ultimately, is the most important thing.
Labels: addiction
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improper perfection
Monday, October 13, 2008/ 10/13/2008 01:15:00 pm
Imperfection to you can be a perfection to another.
The thing is, who is for you and who isn't?
Love: Not about finding someone you can live with. Rather, it is finding someone who you can't live without.
It sounds alike but ponder. It's so close yet so far. Just like...
I love you because I need you.
I need you because I love you.
ineedhim,wanthim,lovehim
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diamond uncrushed
Sunday, October 12, 2008/ 10/12/2008 09:56:00 am
Yesterday, I dreamt of Alex again. This time, it was all about losing him. GAH! NO! I don't
WANT TO LOSE HIM! DAMN IT! Oh well. Hehe. Yesterday was...
SUPER FUNNY, DAMN IT!
Video-cameraing apparently isn't easy and script shit what not is so super hard! I hard to film a mother-flashback scene. Guess what I said?
"Treasure yourself, dear Sani. Don't steal. It's a terrible thing to do...
...
...CUT LA!"
HAHAHAHAHAH! That was funny. We laughed like a lot. We had BLOOPERS ZOMG! TOOT! Hahahah! We planned on actually putting the bloopers?! Hahahaha! :P! It was a real whoah! Anyhow...
Bought myself 2 vests. OHOHOHO! Cheap ones lha! I where got so rich. :P! HAHA! FECK! HAHA!
At work. I entered work with a cheery face. Went out. Go in back with a cold look. ._.! Whew! I has one major mood swing! Hahahaha! Anyhow... when I'm done... Alex asked this... "Why today cannot smile?" I was like ... "NANI?!" but it went silent. :X! XD! In the end, I just smiled and it made him grin madly. XD! Overall, yes, we fight at work. I am still your super-calm-girl-inspite-of-getting-pushed-around because this kinda things, we need to cooperate. :)!
Special cleaning... WAS
HELL BUT EASY! HAHAHAHA! How does
THAT sound for a contradiction much? Wanna know why? Hahaha! Ok. I did my work pretty fast. I spilled some soap and milo in the elevator while going to the 2nd floor to wash the things. XD! Then uhh! Hahaha. I asked Alex for his handphone to call my dad. He usually don't mind. Today as well. BUT THE PHONE WAS WITH AARON AND HE'S IN THE W.C.! I can't possibly enter the W.C. just for a phone! FECK! LOL! In the end, we kissed. Again. HAHAHAHAHA! He said "You're okay lha". PFFFT! WANNA DIE?! XD! I'm super ok! :(! Which is when HELL TRULY CAME. He started having so much energy that god-knows-where-it-came-from. @_@! Oh, did I mention? Alex is super possessive of his phone. @_@! Goshers! Why? Because he likes toying with the keychain I gave him. TOINK LHA! @_@!!!!!!
Anyhow... we all can hear his never-ending profanities, as usual. Except it's really a lot. AND HE PURPOSELY SHOUTED... "ARGH! NEXT WEEK I MUST LOVE BITE!!!!" O_O! Yes. With all due respect, it's REFERENCED TO ME! XD! He was grinning away while I was the retard who was staring at him like a bloop. O_O! Who was the one who wanted the kiss to last longer, HMPH?! XD! ROFL! Oh well. I don't think I'm the same Susu anymore. I really don't think so. With all honesty. Hahaha. That just makesme sound like a dumbfuck. XD! Ok. He really laughed a lot. Smiled a lot. Grin a lot. He's on hyped mode, I fecking swear it! Had the guts to throw ice cubes at me?!?! Or fries, or crumbs, for that matter?! ARGH! He's really hyped. Oh, when we closed the shop, something funny happened...
I told Munawar... "Wah! Someone so hardworking! Still wanna work!" I looked at Alex sideways. Then Munawar pulled off his bandana. Me and Munawar laughed a lot! WHY?! ALEX HAIR WAS SUPER FLAT! HAHAHAHAHAHA! He was like "OY! NA BEI! I LOOK UGLY LHA! FLAT HAIR!... @#$*%$*@" Filters. =X! AHAHAHAHAH! Actually, we told him, he looks cute and adorable. REALLY! ;D! :D! Then he complain to ma'am about us two. ._.! SO much for THAT! That's when he started uhmm... boasting. I'm naturally cute, naturally handsome. I was like "Eh...?" O_O! I just rolled my eyes at him. Only to have him grinning back at me. He keeps saying he has countless malay girl numbers and so on, so forth. Boring here much. I was like "ORLY?" XD! BENYEOH STYLE! ;D! He asked if I was jealous. I was like... "It's your private life. Why the fuck should I really care? XD!" Obviously, I was a little jealous but hey, it's just a little and it's his every right to have whoever's numbers. XD!
He really smile and grin a lot. For that, thank god. ^^! His whole demeanour just changed. He is cute and handsome. To many people, that is. That's just a bonus. The main thing is, he cares a lot for me. Me too. But if he crosses the line, he's free to go. That's the one thing I always always remind myself. He really need to be pampered. He admit that much. When he has a girl, he turns all childish and what not, yohoho! XD! Heck, I was like, oh well, I don't mind living with his goofy-ness. Not living live in same house, live. No! As in, surviving or so. XD! Hahaha!
He drank my Marigold milk. O_O! I was like thinking... "I thought he hated milk?!" There was once he drank blueberry tea.
MY blueberry tea. Syafiq and I were staring at him. I was thinking... "I thought he hated sweet shiz and what not?!" Well, I don't mind in the end. Obviously, Syafiq was staring dumbfounded at us two. Hahaha! Oh well... That is a lot to report. I bet it's 2000 words over and out. :P! HAHAHAHA!
ilovehim,lovehim,lovehim.makesmesmileLabels: truly don't wanna lose him
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totally gone
Monday, October 06, 2008/ 10/06/2008 02:47:00 pm
GONE! IT'S GONE! What is gone?
MY HANDPHONE IS FUCKING MISSING!Or stolen. Or whatever. Fuck this. So retarded. So fag. This is just too... I don't know. UPSETTING! REALLY! ARGH!
Apparently, it's either a prank or a stealer or it just poofed. Chances are, options 1 and 2 are the best. Hey, I don't need fecking posers in my life. If you guys find it supremely fun to just take somebody's things, want me to fucking play the freaking prank on you? So cavalier. Seriously. You guys wanna perform such mischiefs. So childish. Ok. Probably not a prank. If it indeed went missing, how why? It's highly impossible that should my handphone drop into a box or even drop at all, it cannot be found at all. That's just plain amateurish. That's unthinkable yo.
Ok, or maybe someone wanted to make my life a little more hellish. Hey bro! Yo wanna show your abhorrence, this is not the way man! Come out and talk and be open. Feck, who cares if I cry? Just be fecking open. Don't pretend and go prancing around acting like a good friend of mine when behind me, all you're capable of is just to backstab. Capabale of backbiting me. That's just plain mean and rude. Low-minded too. I doubt you'll enjoy it if someone does backstabs you.
Just yesterday, I felt like telling Abang.
Abang, I wanna give you a 24-hour resignation notice. Probably that'll cheer people up and feck, I may get my phone back. If it is indeed stolen. If it's missing, well.. I don't know then. One thing for sure, I did not bring my phone around or out of office. I feel like crying ARGH!
Yesterday, my eyes were like worried. Not about texting or anything. The first thing that came to mind was dad. It was DAD DAD DAD. Dad's gonna screw me upside down. He won't talk to me for days. He won't this and that. Sigh! When I heard his voice on the phone, the first thing I wanted to do was just tear up. That, I did. I couldn't stop myself. I didn't see him looking but I could feel his gaze. Sigh! Everything so wrong...
Labels: sorry doods i'll be uncontactable for yonks yo
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moments of innocence
Friday, October 03, 2008/ 10/03/2008 10:01:00 am
Whoa! What's going on man?! Ok, blogging early is one thing. Another is my dream. NAW! Don't worry, Mr. Naz! It ain't about you this time! It's about... Alex!
I dreamt that I was kissing him! OMG! Someone shoot me please! XD! Ok, that is scary. I suppose. NAH! Hahahaha! It's just a dream anyway. Somehow I enjoyed it. Ohohoho! Anyway, it's cool. Oh yeah. Gave away the present. Somehow the person seems to like it, like a lot. I don't know what to buy for the dude, yo! @_@! Confusion at max. Hahaha!
Today gonna work and school. My Java is super screwed. I haven't done
shit. Hahaha! Gonna
DIE for sure yo. XD!
Anyhow, AHHHHH! STORYBOARDING IS SCREWED ROFL!
OFFICIALLY! Die. @_@! Sigh! I hate java.
Labels: Java is so what-ever
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is love this confusing?
Wednesday, October 01, 2008/ 10/01/2008 01:35:00 am
Confused much! I feel like sleeping, ahoy! Tired from visiting and from visitors, haha! :D! Anyhow...
Quite a number of things happened but as foresworn, I'll keep mum on everything. Just so tired but strangely remotely energetic. Just feel like ending it all but it somehow starts something new. Sigh~! So much to blab but I can't pour it. I think I know. Anyway. Toodles!
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