So, I've come back from my first death. I'm simply revived! Hahaha!
3DGA exams, I'm probably screwed you know but what the heck! I lost about 25 marks there! But a pass is a pass, I ain't gonna whine too much about it. It's pretty late now. 0033. I should be resting, sleeping. But I have a whole day for that tomorrow. So, here I am, thinking again.
Reading Bet's blog just knocked something into me. Sure, saying Goodbye is never easy. It's, in fact, the start of something called "misery". When you say goodbye, do you truly mean it? I've often want to say that to a certain someone. I've given myself leeways and excuses not to say it. For so long now, I've held it inside. All this blogging, sometimes I wonder if I still like him anymore. If I question myself that, does that mean the feelings still linger? Or are they on their way out? I don't know. Nothing ever seems to make sense anymore. I'm just happy that he's smiling and doing fine. :)!
Perhaps, him and I came to a silent mutual understanding. Things can never be the same again. Too much hurt, too much accusations, too much fightings. We've hurt and been hurt by each other too much. We're not what you call a couple. We're not what you call friends. We're mere strangers working together in the same company. You, just a superior and me, just a staff. There's nothing more than that. Yet often, we've fought seriously. I'm sick of apologizing. I'm sick of being a puppet. I'm sick of thinking about you. How I wish you were reading my blog and you'll understand everything. But I don't need your pity or a "sorry" anymore.
I'll admit. I wanna hear "I kinda like you" from your own mouth. :)