unable to sleep.
I got super pissed with Dragonica. Stupid fucking Hookah. Kept spawning effing mobs. I was soloing that stupid shit. Effing idiot has 95k hp. WTF much. That's just so over. It also heals itself. Holy mothaf*cker! Enough Dragonica. Stayed up till now because of it. Sheesh.
1.11. Is someone thinking of me? Sigh. 'Nuff said.
Today went home super early. To end up sleeping like a total loser. I just burn out so fast. Sugah isn't the solution to my everything. Maybe because I just didn't have enough sleep. Die die die. *bangs head on wall* Sigh. I fell in love with Vivian Hsu's Ai Xiao De Yan Jing.
如果不是那镜子
ru guo bus hi na jing zi
If not for the mirror,
不像你不藏秘密
bu xiang ni bu cang mi mi
Unlike you who don’t keep secrets,
我还不肯相信
wo hai bu ken xiang xin
I still don’t believe
没有你我的笑更美丽
mei you ni wo de xiao geng mei li
Without you, my smile is more beautiful.
那天听你在电话里略带抱歉的关心
na tian ting ni zai dian hua li lue dai bao qian de guan xin
That day I heard you over the phone, with your sorry gentleness
我嘟的一声切的比你说分手彻底
wo du de yi sheng qie de bi ni shuo fen shou che di
I hung up with a beep better than you broke up with me
泪湿的衣洗干净阳光里晒干回忆
lei shi de yi fu xi gan jing yang guang li shai gan hui yi
I washed tear sodden clothes and dried my memories in the sun
折好了伤心明天只和快乐出去
zhe hao le shang xin ming tian zhi he kuai le chu qu
Folded up sadness, tomorrow I’m only going out with Happiness
这爱的城市虽然拥挤
zhe ai de cheng shi sui ran yong ji
The Love City may be crowded
如果真的遇见你
ru guo zhen de yu jian ni
If I really meet you
你不必讶异我的笑她无法代替
ni bu bi ya yi wo de xiao ta wu fa dai ti
Don’t be surprised. She can’t replace my smile
离开你我才发现自己
li kai ni wo cai fa xian zi ji
Leaving you only leads me on to discovering my own
那爱笑的眼睛
na ai xiao de yan jing
Smiling eyes
流过泪 #
liu guo lei
Crying,
像躲不过的暴风雨
xiang duo bu guo de bao feng yu
It’s like being under a thunderstorm
淋湿的昨天删去*
lin shi de zuo tian shan qu
Delete the wet tomorrow
离开你我才找回自己
li kai ni wo cai zhao hui wo zi ji
Leaving you lets me find my
那爱笑的眼睛 #
na ai xiao de yan jing
Smiling eyes
再见爱情
zai jian ai qing
Bye-bye love,
我一定让自己 #
wo yi ding rang zi ji
I’ll let myself
让自己决定
rang zi ji jue ding
Let myself decide
泪湿的衣洗干净阳光里晒干回忆
lei shi de yi fu xi gan jing yang guang li shai gan hui yi
I washed tear sodden clothes and dried my memories in the sun
折好了伤心明天只和快乐出去
zhe hao le shang xin ming tian zhi he kuai le chu qu
Folded up sadness, tomorrow I’m only going out with Happiness
这爱的城市虽然拥挤
zhe ai de cheng shi sui ran yong ji
The Love City may be crowded
如果真的遇见你
ru guo zhen de yu jian ni
If I really meet you
你不必讶异我的笑她无法代替
ni bu bi ya yi wo de xiao ta wu fa dai ti
Don’t be surprised. She can’t replace my smile
离开你我才发现自己
li kai ni wo cai fa xian zi ji
Leaving you only leads me on to discovering my own
那爱笑的眼睛
na ai xiao de yan jing
Smiling eyes
流了泪
liu le lei
That cried
当一个人看旧电影
dang yi ge ren kan jiu dian ying
Take it that I watched an old movie alone
是我不小心而已
shi wo bu xiao xin er yi
It’s just me being careless.
离开你我才找回自己
li kai ni wo cai zhao hui wo zi ji
Leaving you lets me find my
那爱笑的眼睛 #
na ai xiao de yan jing
Smiling eyes
再见到你
zai jian dao ni
Meeting you again,
我一定让自己让自己坚定
wo yi ding rang zi ji rang zi ji jian ding
I will let myself, let myself, be strong
离开你我才发现自己
li kai ni wo cai fa xian zi ji
Leaving you only leads me on to discovering my own
那爱笑的眼睛
na ai xiao de yan jing
Smiling eyes
流过泪 #
liu guo lei
Crying,
像躲不过的暴风雨
xiang duo bu guo de bao feng yu
It’s like being under a thunderstorm
淋湿的昨天删去*
lin shi de zuo tian shan qu
Delete the wet tomorrow
离开你我才找回自己
li kai ni wo cai zhao hui wo zi ji
Leaving you lets me find my
那爱笑的眼睛 #
na ai xiao de yan jing
Smiling eyes
再见爱情
zai jian ai qing
Bye-bye love,
我一定让自己让自己坚定
wo yi ding rang zi ji rang zi ji jian ding
I will let myself, let myself, be strong
再见到你
zai jian dao ni
Meeting you again,
我一定让自己假装很坚定
wo yi ding rang zi ji jia zhuang hen jian ding
I would put on a strong front
Sigh. It's a long post because of the song. But really. This song, how much it describes me. But I cannot really discover my happy eyes. Heh. I'm feeling so bleh, thinking whatever, tired like shit, sleepy like a drug-addict.
It's
SOOOO whatever.
Sometimes, maybe you should stay within my sight but out of earshot. Perhaps only the eyes could convey the messages across. I hate the sound of you but I don't hate the sight of you. Sightings can turn into illusions whereas your voice brings me back to reality that you're right in front of me, never disappearing. At least, not yet. One day you'll leave here. Leaving me be with my thoughts and especially the time that I've wasted on you, spent on you, liking you. Focused on you. Perhaps then I'll wake up. Maybe for now, I'll just enjoy my daydreams and my reality. Until you're gone, life will still remain a wondrous mystery for me because fuck this, I hate falling in love yet I'm in the catch of an irony.
Claise, what is Susu gonna do...?
Labels: mumblings and thoughts