Welcome to off days. Gotta love my off. 50% of my day is spent on sleeping. As such, I slept from midnight till 5pm today. Verdict? Don't disturb when I snoozing. I really need the sleep much. So, here I am, blogging with a minor headspin right now. Sucks, really. So much for sleeping, really. Didn't expect D to reply to my whinings today. How he'd ever found out I grilled my fingers, specifically, I can never figure. I only texted that I burnt myself. I didn't say where. It could be my elbow for all I know but ugh, no thanks. In fact, it's all of my fingers except my thumb on my right hand that got affected. Really. The burnt parts paled much because I put my hand in ice water for, say, 3 solid hours at work. I'm just amazing much. Whatever did I do this Ramadhan, really.

Food poisoning.
Fever.
Flu.
Diarrhoea.
Minor burn.

What's next? A prick on the finger? Sheesh.

So, what's gotten into me as of late? I don't know. Clearly, I'm amazed at my level of intelligence. So low. Warlocks much. Dragonica lagged like a mofo. Result? I lagged, simple.

I know I know, I can't run away from reality forever. I didn't say I wanted to run away forever. I request for a change. A break. Do we get such things like "reality vacations"? Highly doubt it. Say, even when you run off and fly to Paris, nothing will change the world. Only where you've been and what you do changes. The fact remains, reality will still hit you bad, one way or another. Probably riot approaching. You got robbed at the mall. Your relative got into an accident. One way or another, life calls you back and makes sure you're there to hear or see it, or better still, both. Life is simply such a bitch.

Then again, so what if you don't take a break from life? It doesn't end up all bad altogether. Ok, maybe not. But there are those happy moments, y'know? But, yeah, like I say, it's those bad moments that make you wanna quit life even if the good ones outweighs the bad ones. It's just those bad moments in life that really gets that ball rolling.

Once I've wondered, what happens if time stood still. Probably funny crap would happen. You know, like in the middle of warfare and it all froze. Or maybe someone about to die and well, he's holding his last breath when time stood still. Or even when you're about to get knocked down by a stupid speeding car and whoosh! It froze. What would you do if you had the ability to stop time?

I guess I'd prefer to turn back the time but ok, reasonable. Let's just answer the question I, myself, posed. I'd probably be able to do some last minute assignments. Last minute studying and cram it all into my head. Probably to clear my shit while time froze. You know, to avoid smell and well, you can just zig zag out of the door and run for more toilet papers if you ran out since well, time froze, everyone is rooted. Probably you could take someone's perfume bottle and spray yourself up.

Most of all, I'd probably freeze those special moments and enjoy it. But you'll be all alone when you do that. Probably the disadvantage you will have is that you'll be spending that moment alone. That is when everything will dawn on you. You're always alone in whatever you face. No matter how much your friends or family will understand your plight, you're always alone. Because in the end, you have to face your own past and fears. Your own history. You will have to face you. Face your reflection. Observe the mirror and you'll realise. Your own enemy is you. All you ever do is to debate as to go about doing it or no.

It's always about you. Nothing can change that. No one can drive you crazy. It's you who drive yourself crazy with someone's banters or presence.

Ah, fuck this. I'm getting a total headache out of ranting. I feel the need to puke. And shit. This is retarded. Night Claise.