I figured I should blog some of my thoughts.

I found myself getting fond of this song, The Call by Regina Spektor. Yes, Narnia - Prince Caspian.

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word
And then that word grew louder and louder
Till it was a battle cry
I'll come back when you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war
Pick a star on the dark horizon and follow the light
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it, too
Doesn't means that you have to forget
Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
Till they're before your eyes
You'll come back when they call you
No need to say goodbye
You'll come back when they call you
No need to say goodbye bye


This song explains much on what I'm thinking. This is much related to the Narnian movie, Prince Caspian, between Susan and Caspian. War after wars.

For me, it holds a deeper meaning. This war doesn't just literally meaning a simple, 3-lettered, tough, all-out-guns-and-machines-and-tanks war. It means the rage of the heart affairs. Be wary of your friends. Are they true or not? If they know and don't spill on you or betray you in war, like say best friends betray one another because they both like the same guy or some sort that kind of dilemma.

All in all, I think he finds me way pathetic. A false confidence, easily crushed. I hate people who cross my path because, simple, I love an easy-way out. It means lashing. I don't know.

I'm just a confused little girl sitting in the real world, with exceptionally good sense for no-directions and is totally lost.