Time heals all wounds, but it's also the hardest medicine to take.
I beg to differ.
You don't get OVER the pain, you just learn to get ALONG with the pain, in time.

Like a person who just recovered from an accident, the person's pain doesn't truly go away. It remains intact. He just have to learn how to live with it, and continue on the mundane life and ignore the pain and get along with it, no matter how painful it is. Once the pain goes away, it never really goes away. Because scars will remain and remind you of the pain you suffered. So why take painkillers to avoid feeling the pain?

Just like the fool I was, I thought when I heard you fell for someone else, it's over for me. I thought I should start hating you but really, in hatred, I shall befriend you because truly, there's still some of those bits of pieces of me that still loves you. It doesn't really go away because they've entered your life, and without Alzheimer's, I don't think anyone can be forgotten easily, especially someone you've once adored.

Even when you've lost your memories, don't say that you don't know who you are. Because the one deeper in you is screaming, don't pretend! But somehow, Fate works out all funny. Either you forget permanently because that life isn't for you or Fate returns you everything and you'll realise, you're back to square one, with differences in life. You'll realise your family changed, your friends lost all hopes in you, the one whom you used to love has moved on. But really, if love is really that strong as they say, your family will be delighted to have you back, welcoming you with open arms and hugs. Your friends will whack you in the head and hug you, saying "Welcome back Loser!" and the one who truly love you welcome you back with tears, because god! How long have they endured missing you when you don't miss them because of the personality disorder for the long days. Will you fall for the one you love or fall for the one who cries for you, longing for you to be theirs and only they know that they can cherish you?

Will they promise that they won't hurt you? I won't buy those words anymore because really, in life, you'll get hurt, intentionally or accidentally. It's only how they come back to you, telling you that it should not matter because only you are in their mind. Their promises of going through the thick and thin, happiness and sadness, is the one that gives true love.

Will they promise to be with you forever? I cannot buy it, because simply, nothing is forever. Prove it to me, that even after death, you'll still be with me, then perhaps, it may come into consideration.

Will they claim that they won't cheat on you? Why say so if you're supposedly to be confident in your love with him/her? If you truly are in love with someone, that statement should not even be spoken outloud, or as a vow. Because you know, you cannot cheat him/her otherwise, it means cheating yourself when you know you only need them in your life.

All I know is...

I'm selfish because all I can think is for my own happiness. I only care about not getting hurt for my part. Little did I remember that if I really like you, I should care for your happiness. Because really, your smile is worth it. It will hurt if I see you with her.

I'm so obssessed with myself, I've forgotten about everyone who looks at me. Will they find me revolting? Will they hate me in silence? Is that all a facade? It totally slipped my mind that I cared not about how I behaved. It was all about you... and how I can grab your attention when in reality, you're already thinking of someone else. I cannot do this anymore. I have to control myself.

I cannot hold on to you. I saw your wings when she appeared. I'd hate to break that pair of wings. I used to have my own pair, till I had to throw mine away. I would love to see that pair of wings, soaring in the sky where it belonged, perhaps with another pair, meant to be.

O god! It hurts when I wrote this but really, I needed to clear my mind. I will get over it, but until then, I'll still care for you. No, no more love. I do love you but no more. I can only care for you, as my superior. Not a friend. Not a colleague. But a manager. That is all. I have to recover all the proper respects towards my own superiors. If we're to be friends, it just means that there is still a tiny hope flickering in and out of existence, giving me too many little wishes that we can be one. No, no more Susu.

I want this to be over and done with but also, I love this feeling of liking you. It gives me this funny prickly feeling. :)! That maybe... just maybe... I do like you a little too much. XD! Whatever. Keep daydreaming, HAH!

No matter what, with all the pain, she knows that... and... and she's in love.