I feel like a lost person. From a lost tribe. An ancient. Coming into the new world. Curious. Weird. Strange. This new place feels so... weird.

Anyway. Life seems so mundane now. DA is so mundane aswell. I don't know what to blog but I feel the need to just blog something. I'm just angry, confused, pissed, sad, happy all at once. But which is which?! ARGH! I'm so honestly annoyed by everything! Yet I'm strangely content with everything! ARGH! All this talk drives me nuts!

Ok, I'll be honest Claise.

All I can talk or think about is him. Meaning HIM. I know! I'm CRAZY!

OMG PLEASE! He's a chinese. I'm malay. I'm short,fat and ugly. He's tall, slim and handsome. Good god! This is a crazy idea! Why am I dwelling so much on such a stupid idea! GOOD GRIEF! x.x! I'm sad! SAD SAD! I'm crazy. For sure. Sigh! Stop thinking about it! It's useless, hopeless! OMG Stupid Susu! Will you STOP IT! DAMN YOU! Not meant, NOT MEANT! DON'T THINK OF IT! GAH! Seriously, upset combo! Haha! :)!

I don't know why we get along so well. Sigh.

Our fights.
Seriously fight with each other and we end up avoiding each other's eyes.
Our silly arguements.
When we made up.
Those funny moments.
Those special moments where you did special things.

You're a funny guy, you know! Seriously! No one does crazy things. When you think I'm not looking at you, your eyes are actually boring at my silhoutte. When I thought you're not looking, you know I steal glances at your way. I'm so embarrassed, god! Caught! You're a pig! >
Scorpio... and Gemini or Gemini with Saggittarius. Or Taurus with Scorpio and Taurus with Saggittarius. XD! CONFUSING! XD!

Anywho... I don't know! Sigh! Please don't let any of this be known to him. >.>;;! Oh God. >.>;;! I really want to keep this buried in my heart. I'm just too idealistic to accept a real relationship. I don't think he's in for it anyway. -.-! His heart is probably taken a long time ago by someone else. Dwelling in it! Thus the seasons of loneliness.

I really hope I can bury this and get over it. He is nothing more than just an illusion, trying to deceive me out of the cave when he is actually just leading me deeper and deeper into the dark caverns. By then, I think I'm too lost to find my way out.

Lost is the word, definitely.

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