for some reasons, yes, im feeling super lazy. just lazy to do any shit. actually, no. Claise. im seriously tired of just trying to keep in touch with alex. im just so bloody pissed off, that today was just plain bad. i have a long cut on my thigh. big sigh. i dropped my deodarant. nivea. yeap. glass. it scratched me. gosh! just what luck got bombarded on me?! i hate today. i feel like a total nincompoop? or however you spell that freakin' ass of a word. oh the joy. jeez.

you know what got me thinking Claise? im bloody sick of being at alex's beck and call. im not some fucking slave. you know what got me lazy to just bloody reply his smses? his replies are just "ya ya" or "ok ok". fuck. i hate this. just so bloody... unconcerned. no point i fucking go MIA. nana was right. we both simply hate this kinda people. just so bloody hell. i died a lot inside. like A LOT. who does he think he is, putting me at this kinda situation eh? fuck. this is another stupid repeat. you know what? i wanna go on silent mode. just stfu. that kind, y'know? don't reply his messages... oh hang on. lemme delete his number. just so pissed off...

...deleting...

...done. slowly and steady, susu girl! you'll feel that you don't have the need to reply his messages back. soon, those feelings will be gone. HECK! it's gone, period. i wish i were bloody joking but yup, it's true. wish i broke up with him for real during christmas. jeez! omaigod, i really regretted not doing so. i seriously SERIOUSLY SERIOUSLY REGRETTED!! now, that i don't have anymore feelings of such... im not looking for another guy, period. i hate guys, end of story. they're just so plain ghey! my gawd! ghey and more gheyness of theirs. flirting around, not caring shit. whatever to losers! note: losers = men. your race just plain sucks. men thinks the worst of us women. we, women, think the worst of you, men. period. we both hate each other but we gotta co-exist. right now, i wish i were on venus. =/! die burning rofl! like as said... men are stupid.

dear girl...
cry as much as you want now...
but those tears can only exist in your heart.
for that, you have to keep living.
live your life out. ignore those who ignores you.
those are just MENTALLY CHALLENGED FREAKS!

OK GOOD. ok this poem is fantastic. a price for trust.

Abondoned
© By Andrew Benedict


You abandoned me on this cold, dark road.
You left me all alone to solve this impossible code.
In this endless storm of tackling winds, blinding lightning, roaring booms of thunder, and stinging rain.
With me forever feeling this pain.
You walked with me but left like the other.
They say you're my sister and he my brother.

You abandoned me on this cold, dark road.
You were with me for every twist and turn.
Trust is a lie this all must learn.
You said you would always help me.
Trust comes with a hard fee.
I trusted you then was abandoned too.
Now that I look back that's nothing new.

You abandoned me on this cold, dark road.
Now I go every day all alone.
Not a single thing I own.
I couldn't take it I fell to my knees.
Another one of lives cold hard fees.
No more, that is the last time I will fall for this trick called trust.
All will have good times as well as the bad times but all that is left for me is bad to be had.
Besides the bad all i have left is this impossible code,
because you abandoned me on this cold, dark road.


Young Girl
© By Aleisha M. Oldham

A young girl sits in a corner, praying her life will change. Not many people care for her, she doesn't like to complain.
She's tried to take her life away, hoping to take away the pain. doesn't matter what she has to display, til she hears that pouring rain.
Her road of life is blurry, her path becomes overtaken. She doesn't like to be in a hurry, only she can't stop shaking
She hates her way of life, but she manages to live. It doesn't seem right, the girl who couldn't give


nice right? ok that's one hell of a long post. im off. toodles Claise!