i'm totally deluded.
by me. by him.
by us.
deluded into thinking that we can last until forever ends.
deluded into thinking that... perhaps... we can defy fate and fight everyone.
deluded into thinking that there is even the tiniest chance that we can be together.
stop.
all illusions have to come to an end.
i have to wake up.
the music is now distorted by simple thoughts. destroys the calm it's to bring. no more listening. no more enjoyment. bliss banned from thoughts. banished. outcasted by skin colors.
why?
ultimately, we'll both feel the pain.
ultimately, we know we'll go our separate ways.
ultimately, i and you will be bound to get hurt.
in the end, no more us.
why can't we end it all?
are we just desperate? to be together?
i can't let go. can't you let me go instead?
will you? you won't. why?
because simply, you can't let go either.
...
facades to hide our true feelings
we face everyday like it's nothing
yet our hearts torn by one very fact
we'll split one day
masks to hide ours eyes
to hide each other from feeling pain we suffer
ultimately, things come to an end
and so, we die and here we go again
i need you
so do you
why are we afraid to face the future?
lets decide now
to fight
or
to give in
i wish to fight.
question is, what is your choice?
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