Hi Claisavard!
It's been tooting way too long since I last updated you about life,
duh. I was thinking that my life has changed so much, so much. I don't even know where to begin but nonetheless, let us try...
Both of them are gone. Forever.
That's the main life-changer.
Secondly, I
went to school and got myself a diploma. Third, I'm now
working a full-time job at a hospital. Fourth, I'm now staying with my
most beloved aunt and uncle. So many changes and I truly apologize for not updating you at all. It has been many, many,
MANY years and you're still here, whether for reminiscing or just to pour my heartfelt content. Even Clair does not know what is going on in my life.
My life feels like a total blank. I'm stuck in this hellhole with no way out. I'm just waiting for a verdict from
THE GAHMEN on how my life will turn out. Whether for the better or worse, I'll leave it to them and God. Ultimately, He is the best of planners. However, I do hope to leave this place for I do not really wish to sin anymore by speaking badly of anyone from this family. I wish to be left alone and
rot and die alone live independently. I missed my old life but I do not blame the parties who have tried to help and who, may not be religious themselves, remind me to stay strong in my faith and that all work eventually work out.
See, the weird thing is that although my
beloved aunt and uncle have strong religious practices, the Adam in the family has a different set of beliefs as compared to majority of the Muslim population. Who is he to say that what the other party did is wrong. I, however, have enough common sense to think that your beliefs are sorely mistaken. You refused to listen to the correct parties but kept insisting that whatever you think is easy is correct.
Puh-leez
I still don't mean to hurt the helping party but thank you for the generosity. I still think that the Adam and Eve are really good, although at the very bottom of their hearts. To the helping party, thank you so much for offering a shelter for this orphan but I will not give up my kid for a supposed
better shelter. If I did not care for the adopted kid, I would have chosen to move in with you anytime but because you have no tolerance for the kiddo, I don't want you to be in a bad position. Enough that you are helping me from afar. I pray that life will always, always be good to you, in health and in wealth. Basically, let life be good to all but we all know...
Life has its ups and downs.
It takes both sunshine and rain to make a rainbow.
So, my kiddo is happily sleeping. I wish you could have seen her. Maybe, in the future, I'll update a picture of how happy me and my kiddo are. I simply cannot live without her although... She chokes the life out of me.
There is simply so much more I wish I could share here, right now with you but as always, we must part ways. Until the next update!
Soon, hopefully.