Ok. Feeling all SHITTY right now. Explain not. I hate doing that.
I'm trying to be all sober but at the moment, I'm not. I'm NOT fcuking drunk. I'm just drunk on thoughts. Grrr. Just once, I want everything to go MY way. I hate being a total loser. Seriously, are my genes labelled "loser"? Gosh! Go die. I hate myself. I keep thinking about
him. I'm such a total loser. Can't I just get over it and move on? Clingy is NOT me. GOD! Forget it, Susu. I hate the stupid past. It's killing me silently.