Hey there.

FlyFF is really getting boring. I just thought I downloaded and try playing Fiesta. Turned out quite bad. I thought the graphics can be so much better. Oh well! Doesn't matter! Tomorrow! I'm going to download Corum Online and RappelZ.

Lalalala! I'm having some funny weird thoughts up here. I've been sleepy lately. Oh right. Thursday, went to rebond/straighten my hair. Friday, did nothing much. Saturday, I went out for the SparksWind (or was it SparkWinds?) concert. Finished at 10pm. *sigh* So late, yeah? I wore high heels on that day. Serve me right. Totally serve me right. 40% of my toes ended up with bloody blisters. Or was it water retention? I have no idea. Either way, they HURT. Like... well, like pain. Can't say "it hurts like hell". Because, I don't know how painful Hell is. Haha.

My big toes and my 4th toes are the affected toes. 40%. I'm totally RIGHT! Sigh! Bloody stuff. So yeah, what with the laziness and activities, I've ignored FlyFF. Apparently, Blitz, Fairie, Autumn and Leap have been playing Gunbound whilst I'm away. Smart, rofl! Don't care. I'm much better off without them, somehow. Or they're much better off without me. Either way, it's good. O.o! Haha! I know. I'm lame. Yeap yeap. Stupid Countdown is coming. I'm practically yawning away. Doubt I'd be joining the Countdown fun. Lame. I just want to play my Pokemon Mystery Dungeon - Red Rescue Team. *cries* It's a nice and good game. *tears* Hahaha!

Should I reveal my heart contents here? I don't know... Probably I should. I should.

I've been feeling funny. Not those weird funny. Ok, strange funny. Either way, it's spelled W-E-I-R-D. Sigh, I'm a weirdo. I've been thinking lately. What is it that I really lack? Or I'm missing out? Or whatever. When I was watching Witch Yoo Hee, I've been thinking. Seung Mi. I feel so much like her. You know, clingy. Yeah, clingy's the word of the day. Snobby Susu. =(! Yeah, spell me funny. If I'm not funny, I'm a goblin's uncle. Makes me kind of feel bad. Guilty. Towards HIM. I really feel bad but somehow, I pity Seung Mi, indirectly pitying myself. I feel that she is a nice girl but clouded by love. I suppose, I am too. *shrugs* Who TRULY knows anyway...

Sometimes, we all want time to repeat. We wish for time to go back. But it never work. Because, time keeps running. That's a fact. That fact alone will never give most of us the second chance we desperately want. Be it for a lost love or a lost family member or anything! It just zooms by. All we have is memories. And hope. Hope that everything will work out ok. But for the lost, I think it's gone, forever. It won't come back. Or will it? I don't know. Although most of us don't want to let go, it seems time is a teacher and a healer. It teaches us one thing, I am definitely confident on.

Life goes on.

Whatever grudges or memories we have, we slowly forget them despite trying to cherish them as much as we can. It's like a promise, you know? A self-promise. We don't want to let go but somehow, Fate works wonders. The future is weaved into a perfect dimension. Is it just us rushing into wanting to feeling the wonders? Or is it Fate working weird? I don't know. To me, I feel as though I'm rushing. Fate has it worked out. All we need to do is just continue life as always, be pleasant and polite despite any black history. The perfect moment will chance upon us. We'll meet our significant half. Unless of course there's no significant half. Or is it another trick, designed by Destiny?

Despite knowing this, despite knowing this silly fact, I kept holding on. Aren't I clingy? Probably I just don't want to know the fact. Although it has been shot to my head. Like repeatedly. I don't know. I feel confused, more than ever. But I'm still a teenager. Why should I bother with these kind of silly, stupid thoughts? Had it been silly, I won't be thinking about it.

One more factor. Isaac. I miss him, like a lot. I wonder if he is fine. I think I'm over him. Or am I REALLY over him? I think not. I'm so queer! Weird! Funny! Strange! Spell the synonyms! I can have a new boyfriend but I'll always hold a torch for my past flames. What is going on, Susu?! Wake up girly! Smell the roses! I'm really a...

STUPID

girl. GAH! Enough thoughts! I'm getting more and more confused!