Aeons has passed.

I seriously prefer Internet Explorer because I can see my blog looking all fine and dandy. That's why I never bother to blog nowadays because I'm using Google Chrome. It messes up my page. I think I better make a new blog skin because, HELL, I don't think this skin suits me.

I've a lot in mind now but most of all is this, studying and getting into that STUPID STUPID journalism course. Sigh. It's all I've been thinking of. Apart from work. And work. And work. It's full of workshIt. LOL.

You know when you're all but trapped in a limbo, what would be the first thing you'd do? Find a way out? Nah. I believe fear takes over first, then you get all frustrated, not knowing what to do with the anger and madness. Finally, you kick and throw anything in sight and scream out loud.

It's called "breaking down".

I hate the feeling. No. I abhor it. A lot.

I have so much to think of, so much to worry about, so much to smile and hope for that I don't know where the holy frish I'm going. I'm so lost and stuck. I don't have a plan! I live for today and tomorrow, well, what happens, happens.

I can't find myself in the far future because I simply cannot find myself married, VERY educated, having a good life, living with someone to think about. Fuck man. I feel so.... urghh, down!

There're times when I feel like giving all up and think this.

Whatever will be, will be.

Aigoo. I need to study again. I want to learn languages, again. Everything, again!