Feels queer, y'know? I don't know. Topsy-turvy. Twisted. Round and round the globe. Queer. Plain weird. Just funny. Just... Funny. I know. Stupid. Oh. Anyway, Gio started asking me questions about my new school. Suddenly, new funny thoughts just conquered me. I don't feel like chatting about it though. Don't know.

I feel so moody today. With everyone. I just diss them off with my bitterness. I just feel like shooting everyone. I mean it. Everyone. Including my dad and my cousins and my friends. I suddenly have the feeling that I'm alone again. On an island. With only a pistol with one bullet left. No food. No ways of escaping. No boats to escape that island. I just got ditched. A fact thrown to me. Everyone just left me. What am I saying? Why am I getting so sentimental? What the hell is wrong with me?????? Someone please explain. My tears feel like dropping right now. Someone, can you PLEASE tell me what the hell is extremely wrong with me??? SHOOT ME, CLAISAVARD. I don't like these people. They're jerks. Don't know. I hate you. Stupid. WHAT AM I SAYING? WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME? Suddenly I feel like xmasterz is so far away from me. Beyond reach. My DA friends are beyond my understanding. Shiran is like one tiny dot across the desert. Gio just left for SPACE. Jennifer just went missing. Marina is beyond communication now. Dad's listening is beyond my reach. The rest... Well... Wiko isn't there anymore. My cousins just turned their backs on me. MW is just beyond my reach. Oddy... well, he isn't there anymore, now, is he? I DON'T KNOW! I HATE THIS CONFUSION! It's just leaving me depressed. I don't want to listen to you guys. You guys are jerks. I hate this...

Night.

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